Monday, October 22, 2007, 12:54 PM [
General]
Merry Meet
HI All, Long time no blog!
I have been taking my time to learn what is needed to in witchcraft. I have picked up Cunninghams book on magical Herbs and Ravenwolfs Solitary witch and now my studies Begin! I am very excited to get started on my magical journey as it were. I have learned so much from chatting and emailing you guys back and forth gotten Ideas of how things are in your lives regarding your Paths that you have choosen. Iam still up in the air about that however I think A full fledge witch is th way to go but what deity and such i havent a clue that is where my studying and researching will come into play.
I had a calling to start this Path in my life i could feel the pull and the desire to learn magic so I know I am learning what I need to for a reason. I have a good friend that I work with that come to find out is a Witch also and has a coven. We discuss things and I have used my ability to read auras in front of her and she recognizes the power I do have and says that i should not hide it but use it as much as possible... I agree with that for to use it is to hone it and perfect it. Right now its shotty hit and miss and meaning either its there or its not I have no control over it which is bad cause i dont want it popping out at anytime it feels and its not serving me a purpose right now nor is it helpful when i freak people out at random. I do want to help people and thats just something that is a part of me I cant control. I noticed last week That while speaking to people Instead of talking about this and that they all just opened up adn starting spouting out stuff taht was not relevant to the situation at hand like speaking it to me was helping them so rather than stopping them I listened and empathized and cared and after each experience i knew that It is something in me making people or making them want to do this,,,, the case and example is my boss which i dont know well cause i work third shift was giving me a weekly review and all of a sudden in my review about my work which we do every week just started discussing his past his health and fears wants you know just really opened up and spewed forth what seemed to me to be alot of personal information that i didnt have any business knowing about but I could tell from his need to speak it that he wanted to tell me,,, so i listened and as im responding i noticed that he could tell he didnt understand why he needed to open up to me to. Puzzled looks on his face but he kept going and then when it was over he looked relieved but a tad astonished and even said well enough of all that... blinked a few times and got back to the business at hand... I had no problem listening, understanding and even, feeling, as he discussed things i got a feeling over me of emotions not coming from me but from him I don't know the people he was talking about but I almost could see them nor could I understand the situations he described and the fear and anxiety he had was pouring out and i could feel them also, I remained calm but realise somehow I helped.. and that made me feel good!
Is that a power I have? Does talking to me help emotional issues? Of all the things I have learned so far I do not know of what this could be. in the past week alone there are about 7 people that have done this to me. People I know BUT do not ever do these sort of things. it willl be intersting as I grow as a witch to see if this continues and if so where it will lead me. I saw colors in some people... Like around them as the speak red flashes and yellows blue and greeen magentas very faint flashes across the face out side of the body around the head. I was told by my friend at work whom is a witch taht I am seeing auras and The more i think about it teh more i remember as a child seeing colors and lights that werent there, asked my dad one night when i was 7 dad what are all those lights in the yard ... you mean the lightening bugs he asked... I said no the lines of lights all over from the trees to the bushes and the grass.. he asked me again if i was seeing em now adn i said yes and i described them as much as a little kid could I also told him i saw colors around people sometimes also... he didnt say much to me after that. But the fact that i asked questions about it early in my life and I DO remeber that conversation and seeing the light through the yard that night.
Intersting that i rmemeber this now in my 30s as its coming back to me that i am seeing these things again more prominant and knowing it happened before. Back then i didnt know what to do but as a adult Im better prepared and wiser as to what it could be.
Does it have a purpose was i meant to have this for a reason? Predestined things are not something i feel are possible so why me? what can I do with it?
Well these are the things plagueing me right now if anyone out there reads this and you have ideas or suggestions PLEASE email me or make a comment and let me know what you feel this could be and IF YOU DO KNOW please direct me to the source of what you know so I can research it also.
Well I have rambled on enough for one day Merry Part
DON
PS the full moon cometh!